After my latest disappointing audition for one of my favorite musicals (see my previous posts), I shifted my focus toward an upcoming Shakespeare audition and two independent film auditions. I didn’t have to sign up for any of these. The Shakespeare audition was within walking distance of my house. The public could come in and read at any time over the course of two days. The two film auditions were also walk-ins but one was in a different city.
On the night before the Shakespeare audition, I overindulged in some social drinking. This resulted in a rather unpleasant morning and a slow start to my day (I lost an hour that night due to DST). I knew I had over-scheduled myself when I agreed to usher on the same day as the auditions. I pushed through the haze of my hangover, got up, got dressed, and amazed myself by making it over to the theatre in time for my ushering gig. I got to see a free show and got a free cupcake for my trouble. I was glad I had agreed to usher. The show was wonderful. It was a lovely way to spend a Sunday afternoon. I definitely plan to do that again.
Once I got home from my ushering gig, I was hungry and tired and didn’t feel like putting myself on display. I halfheartedly told myself I would audition that next day, but I knew that wasn’t going to happen. In the end, I didn’t have the time to put a monologue together and I didn’t feel the least bit of confidence in my ability to tackle the material. Another thing that always makes me hesitate is the location of the shows. Every show is outside. For this reason alone, these yearly auditions are on the bottom of my priority list. Still…I have always wanted to give Shakespeare a shot. Maybe next year. I will definitely be attending the productions when they are staged in the summer (wearing plenty of bug spray and sunscreen).
This past Sunday, I had originally planned on doing the two film auditions. The good part was that they were asking for women in my age group which has been a rare thing lately. The bad part was that they were scheduled to shoot in Omaha which would make my life difficult. Again, like a pro, I had partied hard and indulged in some drinking and smoking the night before. Looking back on it, I wouldn’t have changed my plans in order to accommodate these auditions. I am really glad I went to the party. It gave me a chance to bond with some theatre folks I didn’t previously know very well.
I woke up on Sunday dehydrated and sleepy. I made the effort to pretty myself up thinking I might still make it to at least one audition. I even trimmed my hair and put on my face. I looked in the mirror and…I just wasn’t feeling it. Why take time out of my day off work to audition for a film out of town that I might not even be cast in? I really just wanted to spend the day with my hubby. So, I did.
We ended up going to an art gallery opening in Omaha with some friends and then to a movie at the Alamo Drafthouse (where I unexpectedly won a horror movie soundtrack on vinyl in a contest I hadn’t even entered!). It was an awesome day. I felt a twinge guilty that I skipped the auditions, but that was nothing compared to the rush of relief when I gave myself permission not to go to these auditions.
What have I learned? I love acting, but not that much. Will I still audition? Sure. I enjoy it as a hobby. If forced to chose between more auditions or an interesting social life, I will chose my friends every time. I would rather form relationships with people and work on strengthening existing friendships than go out of my way for an audition.
I really need to get my little home recording studio set up so I don’t have to leave my house to audition for things.
I am looking forward to being a part of the upcoming Rocky Horror performance even though I am not performing. I has been interesting to see the show come together from the ground up. This will be the first time I have ever seen a complete production of this musical that I haven’t purchased tickets for.
“Let’s do the time warp again!”